Sunday, March 4


This past month has been quite the whirlwind for us.  It has been a month of craziness mixed with change.  I have always seemed to be able to handle change/hard things with an eternal perspective, however this month I found myself on my knees a lot as my heart has been filled with questions and sometimes doubt.

Tyson and I were so excited to almost be announcing my pregnancy.  I would be around fourteen weeks today.  This all came to a halt a few weeks back when I went in for an ultrasound and we could no longer see the baby or hear the heartbeat.  My heart sunk as it was confirmed what I had been feeling all along, that something was just not right.  

My doctor told me that I would probably miscarry in two to three days, but if I did not that I would have to have a D and C.  That week was a very low week for me.  I kept praying that it would happen on its own, so that I wouldn't have to have surgery.  I did end up having to go in for a D and C, which was nerve wrecking and hard for me.  

I knew I had to change my attitude on the situation.  I knew that if I allowed myself, I would become angry or upset.  I had to remember that everything in my life has always worked out.  I had to remember all of the tender mercies that have been granted to me along the way, of missing my dad and the daily blessings that I receive.  I had to trust that this was in the Lord's hands and that when the timing is right, Tyson and I will be blessed with a baby.  

I came across a couples of scriptures that helped heal my heart in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10.

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.  Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecution, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

I know God has a plan for me and that if I put my faith and trust in him all things will work together for my good.  I was reminded of the truthfulness of these things as Tyson and I said goodbye to our first house together.  Yes, I did shed a couple of tears.  What a blessing it was to be able to have that home.  Inside those walls rest great memories.  

We are all moved into Tyson's parents house now.  We returned back to were it all started.  This time with so much more stuff.  I really don't understand where it all came from.  We have some of our things in storage, some out in Tyson's dad's garage and some in our room.  I did however, enjoy dejunking.  One of my favorite things to do.

Our house has made a lot of progress in the past few days.  It has been fun to watch the change that is made overnight.  

It feels good to have all the packing and unpacking done for now.  I am back to teaching Zumba and back to my everyday cravings of sweets.  Tyson and I enjoyed the weekend by going to the Fresno Home Show.  This is one things I look forward to every year.  The cinnamon rolls are to die for.  

I always loved watching the dogs jump of the ramp into a huge pool.  Don't worry that I convinced Tyson to sign Gigi up for next year.  

I am looking forward to the new things to come, ready for whatever comes our way.  I know that no matter what change is a part of life, without it we wouldn't have the opportunity to grow and to become more like Christ.  


  1. I just happen to see your blog on traci's blog. I am so sorry. I am sure that is so painful to go through. Everything always works out.. It doesn't always seem like that, but it does; and you will be so grateful when that baby does come. (especially when you look into their cute little eyes in the middle of the night) I wish you the best and good luck!

  2. Oh Janessa. I'm so sorry. That is so hard. You are strong, and such a good example. Thank you for your sweet testimony of God and Christ and His grace.

  3. Girl, I am SO sorry! It is so hard to understand why things happen the way they do. We had a miscarriage in July and it was HARD. I know the Lord WILL bless you. Keep trusting in him!!! Love ya

  4. So sorry to hear about your miscarriage! What a hard thing to go through! It is so hard to understand why some things happen but I know everything will work out for you guys! Your house looks great. Love reading your posts. Take care!

  5. Hang in there Janessa! I too had to learn to be patient and trust in the lord when it took us 5 years to get Mason here. Now I have 3 beautiful boys and am so glad that I had that extra time with just Cameron and I. It will happen. Love you!

  6. Oh Janessa you make me smile at how upbeat you are - and always have been since I have known you. Things happen for a reason and maybe once you guys move into a house that baby will return to you and Tyson. I can tell you it will happen because I didn't think I would get pregnant (we tried unsuccessfully 3 years) and as soon as my husband put a ring on it I got pregnant 6 months later. So things will happen! Keep your head up and enjoy everything you have because you are a lucky woman!!! :D Keep smilin cutie!

  7. Wow Janessa, you are one AMAZING person. I am so sorry for all that you have been going through lately, No one would ever know, you always seem to have a smile and a positive attitude! I can't imagine how hard that must of been for you and Tyson. I am thinking about and praying for you guys, and put your names in the temple! You are such a perfect example to everyone, and have taught me and all those that know you how to react when trials come... You are an inspiration!!!

  8. I can only imagine how hard that must have been. YOu are fabulous and every time I read your blog you teach me something about life and change. Love you.