I had my first meltdown, that so many have warned me about. There I was standing in the kitchen preparing dinner and it hit me like a ton of bricks, this precious time where I have been able to give P my undivided attention, is about to come to a close. I have been able to meet all of her needs and snuggle her any chance the time has allowed. We have laughed together, cried together and grown so much with one another. She is my first and I have loved every second with her. I am trying to soak up every second with her before her little sister gets here. I know she is going to have a hard time and I think that is what scares me most. She's a mama's girl for sure. I worry will I love the next baby as much as I love Penelope, don't get me wrong I know I will, but it still crosses my mind.
I always wanted my kids close in age, but now I'm being selfish of the time I have left spent with P. She has grown up so much over this past month. Watching her transition from baby to toddler has been so much fun! She's finally walking and it couldn't be any cuter. She waddles with her arms high into the sky and has the biggest grin on her face. Her poor molars have been trying to come in for what feels like months now and it's caused her multiple fevers and an upset stomach. It has been so sad. The extra snuggles have made up for it though. She's fallen asleep on my chest now a couple of times and I have been a total bowl of mush. I stare at her chubby cheeks and her long lashes and wonder how I got so lucky.
This post has been all over the place, but that's how I feel lately. Blame it on the pregnancy hormones. I feel so blessed that I get to spend every day playing with Penelope. It has been the best thing for me. I know adding another one to the mix will be even more rewarding and I know I can't fully comprehend just how much I'm going to love this next one. Penelope is going to be such a great big sister. I hope I can do a good job sharing the attention and love.
If any of you mama's out there have any advice on how you transition from one to two, it would help me heaps!