P's Hips and Things

Today has been one of those days were my emotions are getting the best of me.  My mind is going at a million miles per second, of all the things I need to get done, at the same time trying to be the best mom that I can be.  This mom guilt stuff is for real.  I have really been struggling with managing my time.  There never seems to be enough time in the day.  I always have these grand plans of what I am going to knock off of my to do list for the day, but somehow other things always come up.  You should see my laundry room....

At the end of the day my to-do list should not matter.  What is most important is knowing that my kids felt loved and that I spent enough quality time with them each day.  Things really get put into perspective when a curve ball is thrown your way.  

Let me back track to when Lucy was born.  Our pediatrician came in and did the routine check up.  One of the things on their list is to look at the baby's hips and make sure there are no signs of hip dysplasia.  Our doctor said she was a little concerned at how flexible the movement in Lucy's hips was and that she would need to recheck them at her next appointment.  I told her how flexible P was.  When I say flexible I mean, Gumby!  She asked to remind her at P's next check up to have her take a look.

Fast forward to P's two year check up.  Her appointment went great and she seemed healthy as can be.   Just as the doctor was walking out the door, I showed her how flexible P was.  She was amazed and said she would sleep better at night, knowing we had an x-ray done to determine if P might have hip dysplasia.  

Yesterday I took her in for her x-ray.  She was so scarred.  I felt so bad for her and a flood of emotions came over me as I was reminded all that she had to go through in her first year.  She did great through the x-ray.  I was able to hold her hand and made sure she held still.  Will find out the results tomorrow or early next week.  Why is it that they make you wait for what feels like an eternity for test results?

Now I realize it's not the end of the world if she ends up having hip dysplasia.  It will however be a challenge.  The treatment could range anywhere from having both legs fully casted for months or even surgery.  I honestly don't know if I can handle another surgery on my baby.  I am staying optimistic and hoping her flexibility will just be an added bonus for her soon to come dance years. 

Being a mama is definitely the hardest job I have ever had.  You feel everything your children feel and so much more.  I honestly want nothing but the best for my kids and hope I am doing a good enough job at showing them the love I feel.  I love that each day we get to wake up and try a little bit harder.  All of the piles of laundry, dirty floors, pictures to be edited and rooms to pick up can wait.

Thanks for reading my jumble of mom emotions!

Here is a tear jerking post on Motherhood that helped me feel like I'm not alone.

And a song that about threw me over the edge... in a good way.